Sometimes being right is not that important.

Was playing bball earlier on and I called for a foul made onto myself, by W. I was really surprised he insisted there was no contact. I'm 95% sure I felt someone smack my right wrist area, but I didn't rebut his claim.

Sometimes one has to be reminded that being right is not as fulfilling as maintaining great friendships.

So I kept quiet and let it go.

I don't think he's weasel-ing his way out of a foul, but neither do I think I'm mistaken.. But does it really matter..?

But I love such life lessons, it keeps me grounded and allows me to learn to be a better person =]

Anyway, I just came back from a short trip in malacca. Weekend well spent, with great company and exuberant atmosphere! ^^

Bought a bag, t shirt and shades. I read somewhere that being relevant(fashion-wise, in this context) is key in getting a good first impression. I'm not a fan of being superficial, but I guess following the flow of such trends would be a wise move =]
(The stuff I bought are considered as cheap deals if converted into SG dollars anyway 😁)

There was a huge discussion and much were revealed. I just hope the parties involved are ready for the worst scenario.
And I'm glad Y didn't have to break a promise made. Promises are super vital in proving that one can be a reliable source of comfort and secrets-keeper. I learnt this the hard way :/

Moving on, aloy is gonna ORD soon liao! Time really flies, I can still vividly remember the day when he came into our office lol~ Justin + kw + myself psycho-ing him about the fact that his upper study is actually a monstrous octopus in disguise. Fun times HAHA! I guess the frequency of office visits will soon decrease, and such is life :S

Feeling so nostalgic now. Sigh. Sometimes I wish I could travel back in time and change some of my decisions made. But obviously I can't, and I'm slightly regretful.. :/

CNY is coming and I splurged almost $300 on new year clothes. I need to work ah~

Pretty much stopped relying on my folks for cash nowadays. In fact, pretty much stopped relying on them for anything. Relationships are not as close as in the past, but I don't think it would ever be the same again. Sometimes I think I'm being a little petty, but when I think of the bad times I had without support when I most needed it, the guilt disappears into thin air. Mostly.

L's issues have not been improving at all. In fact it seems to have worsened...
I just hope he can find the courage, wisdom and determination to move on..

School has started and I haven't really put in as much effort as I would have likes. Must study tmr liao la~

And I couldn't make a trip down to GPF last weekend, I die die must walk Daryl this coming weekend before he slips back into his old demanding self again..

Aaand it's 3 in the morning. Gah, there goes my sleep-earlier plans. Sigh.

Till next time!

Signing off,
-Khai

Good times ^.^

Went on a super last min shopping outing with the bball peeps just afew days ago and bought myself afew pairs of shirts, a chinos pants and a pair of shoes. Kaching~ 260 bucks disappeared from my bank account. Melacca trip this weekend, another 250 spent..

I NEED TO EITHER START SAVING UP LIKE CRAZY OR WORK LIKE CRAZY!

Gosh. And I don't even take much allowances from my folks nowadays.

Well I guess my list of goals will not happen anytime soon :/

Anyway, I'm really glad to have regular bball sessions with the peeps. Sometimes we play hard(superbly serious :0) , but most of the time we play just for entertainment sake... Makes Bballing a so much more fun(ny) sport when we don't play too competitively.. ^^

Sucks to sprain my thumb though, on top of the bruised thigh from last week... Must really be careful when playing nowadays, old liao la haha~

But it's all worth it, the shopping and the ball sessions, and i guess the joy that these activities bring is more important than anything else. (Almost..!)

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Overseas trip this weekend with the office peeps, looking forward to it already! :D

And paiseh GPF, I'll be back in action real soon, 1st feb! =]
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Aaaand it's 2+ in the morning, time to get to bed, have more studying to do tomorrow :S

Signing off,
-Khai

At a crossroad

Was lazing around at home after school and work and randomly blog/web surfing when the "what-the-hell-have-you-been-doing-in-your-life" moment hit me.

That got me thinking....

In life its typical for one to struggle to maintain the current lifestyle that one has.

So how can I push myself to achieve the goals that I had hoped for but lack the resources and motivation to do..?

As opposed to what I always tell my friends (especially the animal clique), the social pressure is getting to me. Didn't think I'd ever consider succumbing to this, but the subconscious mind has been bugging me to start on some stuff I should have completed years ago, such as getting a driving license and studying/working harder for better grades/ more income.

And I guess C is right, if I don't start actively searching for the other half, "then wait until 39 meh?"

My thoughts are in disarray.

Anyhow, recently my speaking voice has been on and off, sometimes waking up to a really tired voice. No idea why, but I just hope I can "recover" asap and start working for my moolah properly.

Ironically my singing voice is back...well almost...

Not sure if I should start making a checklist of "To do-s", because I might just end up ignoring/not following the list at all.

Actually, I'd just do it here:

To Do List:
1. Get the bloody computer fixed/get a new computer
2. Driving License
3. Lose weight to 70
4. 1 HD, 2 distinctions this semester
5. Wardrobe revamp
6. Continue volunteering till graduation
7. Actively search!


I just hope I stick to it... >.<

Bahh I've class tomorrow, better catch up on some sleep now...

Signing Off,
-Khai

Millan Fanboy!

Got my second book delivered to my doorstep this morning, and Lo behold, Cesar Milan's book is finally here! Excited me sped read through the entire book in 2 hours or so...

And I immediately thought of the commitment I made. Sigh, I think at this point of writing that I made a bad choice in taking up the job. The zen, calmness and satisfaction I get from volunteering at the shelter significantly outweighs the monetary benefits I get from working the entire weekend..

If not for my friends who wanted to work, no way would I take it up :/

Oh well, one shall not dwell in the misjudgements made in the past.. Lesson learnt and I'll make sure not to commit entire weekends on a whim in the future..

On the bright side, I'm just glad I can help friends make some bucks this time round, and that I value-added myself(even if its a little) in the company.. =]

It's almost 2 in the morning, and I have to be up at 6+ in the morning. Wish me luck in somehow finding enough rest meanwhile... >.<

Sweet dreams people! ^^

Signing off,
-Khai

Ouch..!

Was just playing ball yesterday and I got knee-ed in the thigh area first game into the night. Didn't think much of it until after the games when the throbbing hit me. Quite a serious one, and now I'm half walking/hobbling to school ._."

Plus the bite wound from daffy/dara is starting to prick.. Gahh~

Oh the irony though, one injury on knee and the other on the thigh where I got KNEE-ED. =S

And I just realised yesterday that I unknowingly committed myself to other activities for 2 full weekends consecutively. That means I won't be visiting GPF 2 weekends in a row, first time this will be happening ever since I started volunteering there. Shall not be so careless next time, as it's a commitment I made to myself till at least I graduate.. I'll miss the furkids :/

I just hope that mr stubborn won't revert to his old ways while I'm not there to reinforce it.. :/

Bo bian ah, sometimes in the world of practicalism, money wins the war against lofty dreams and happiness..

Aiya for now, shall not think so much and focus on the lecture notes in front of me lol.. Study study study!

Signing off,
Khai

TGIF indeed!

Its been a great day so far, and its already 5pm! First up, this came in:

Only took 1 week to deliver after I ordered online in amazon.com! Always a fan boy of Cesar Millan, I agree with him that the words "dominance" and "control" are often associated with negative connotations. People need to see that Dominance can also mean guidance and direction, whereas control is just another word for say, a parent stopping a kid from eating too much sweets or something.

Anyway, im already immersing myself into the world of millan and i hope to glean some additional info that I didnt manage to catch or understand from his dog whisperer shows and his random youtube videos. Cool stuff!

Next up, I managed to motivate myself to work with friends during a weekend that I usually would spend at the dog shelter. Of course, this means giving up on my commitment to GPF for that weekend. No choice la, money is required nowadays and I need to prioritise...

Thirdly, I'm still keeping up with Commercial Law, much to my surprise! Super lot of readings to be done and understood, I'm glad I can keep up with the pace (even if its only for now!). Did afew hours of reading yesterday and today..yay~!

Lastly, I'm just glad of my own progress these few months. Looking back, its been really quite tough as I had to juggle quite afew important aspects of my life. I've made new friends in both school and GPF, maintained and cherished the current ones, did okay for first sem of school, (could be better, but wtheck) managed my finances decently, what else can I complain about? =]

Anyway, gotta rush to school now... till next time!

Signing Off,
Khai

Thanks for the feedback, I'm grateful and humbled!

1 week of 2013 has passed. I've been pretty passive about things this year(I hope), and being more open with myself about my short-comings.

It's been great so far. Truth or truth(dare) sessions with most of my cliques of close friends has been quite rewarding, if not entertaining LOL!

I'd just like all of you to know that I've really heard your concerns regarding certain areas about myself that all of you have mentioned and I've taken your inputs seriously into consideration and I'm hoping I can change for the better based on them =]

To C: Your input's too "cheem" for me! I'm not sure if I got it right, but if I did, I'd make sure our future correspondences would be....carried out swiftly.. =P

To M: I actually have goals in life! I'm just kinda worried that I can't keep up with myself and hence I don't voice out the full extent of what I'm really hoping for. I don't wanna disappoint everyone and myself.. =/
Of course you can always ask me if you're interested haha..

To L: You should have been there =/

To M2: Even though I've always been putting you down (jokingly of course!!), its been my pleasure to have known you and thanks for the reminder about life in general. I see alot of me in you, and I'm glad to be able to learn from your strengths and help you out in your weaknesses.

To J: This would be my feedback to you. Please do read through everyone's inputs and try to see things from different angles/point of views, you might just understand why people react the way they did/do. And yes, we're still friends lol~

To B clique: Sorry I can't be as thorough as I did to the above people, but I'd like to let you peeps know that it's been really fun that night HAHA!

To P clique: Let's meetup soon please! It's been fun talking about old times haha =D


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Moving on, school's starting soon and I need to buck up to close the GPA gap..! Gonna study after this post so I won't feel so guilty wasting too much time hahaha~

My singing's been really rocky recently... on off on off. I'm not sure what to do, cause I apparently can't stick to resting much...sigh...how ahhh~~

I don't like ending posts on a negative note, so I'm glad to have stuck around GPF! The atmosphere and people feels right, and yesterday was the first time I went out to dinner with the regulars. They're really jovial people with lots of life experiences, and I'm really really glad to have been there!

I guess it can't really go wrong, when we're all there for a common cause and passion.  =]

PS: To the 2 people who are probably sniggering, DON'T THINK TOO MUCH! >.>''

Till next time!
-Khai

2013!

It's yet another new year~

Usually I make new year resolutions but this year it's gonna be more of the journey rather than the destination(or objective).

My hopes of singing has recently been revived as somehow my condition has weirdly improved. Absolutely no idea why. I'll just go with the flow I guess!

This year I hope to start on 2 things I was supposed to do years ago, we'll see how it goes. No objectives are to be met, but I do need to make a conscious effort!

I'm glad to have fallen back on my "lost" passion recently when I was feeling down. Thanks Daryl and the rest of the fur kids (though they obviously can't read HAHA) , for showing me the results of sticking to commitments! I will continue to watch and learn!

And since I'm paying for my education, I will be sure to put in more effort in scoring for this sem's modules, to pull up my GPA~

I think I've been doing my part in organising and participating in friends meet up in 2012, but nevertheless I will continue to do so in this coming year =]

I'll make sure to spend more time with granny this year, and make up with "her" sooner or later, once I've cleared my own short term goal..

Gambatte-yo mina san!

Signing off,
-Khai

All forms of relationships need effort from all parties

As title suggests, I've been thinking bout the recent incidences that I've seen happened.

An army friend of mine recently broke up with his other half and was really depressed for awhile. He's better nowadays though, and has since learnt and grown from it. Super proud of him and I know he's just gonna become a better person and BF. (good luck for the next one ya? :D)

This other incident is ironically similar but yet totally different. I hope this friend of mine has the courage and wisdom to face reality and do damage control, or it's just gonna escalate till a point whereby nobody can help (or even empathise). All the best my friend...

From incident 1/2, I totally felt the need to reconnect with all existing friends. Maybe it's guilt on my side that sometimes I don't put in effort in maintaining these bonds I have with these people who were there (some of them anyway) when I was down and stuff. Don't be too passive, and don't try TOO hard. Mm..

Anyway I digress. The main reason I decided to blog this time round was to remind myself to be honest and truthful to the people around me, and be more sincere in maintaining friendships.

This reminders came in the form of a recent event that got me quite disappointed. Person A(no names as usual) pulled a no-show without any notification. Neither was person A apologetic. My instincts has been kicking me in the guts that even Mum A pulled a fib in person A's stead. I hope my instincts are wrong but I somehow doubt that :/
I rather person A decline to go for the event rather than weaving fibs. No point right? We've known each other for a long time...
Person B came though, with totally no intention to follow through. Guts tell me person b is in the loop of person A's "predicament", and probably was told to keep mum as well. What happened to the basic values of making things work? :/
Furthermore person b had clearly stated the inconveniences of providing conveniences. A friend in need is a friend indeed<-- fail =(

Kinda makes me sad that my brain is telling me that A/B have become so mercenary-like. Sigh...

Regardless of what happened, I've already looked past the matter and would rather let sleeping dogs lie. "To err is human, to forgive divine." I'm sure I've made my share of mistakes and I guess all these are part and parcels of forgiving and forgetting.

On a happier note, I've been volunteering at a random dog shelter one of my friends had previously helped out at, and I'm finding it very enriching and satisfying. This weekend commitment further justifies my passion and love for dogs. Awesome stuff, I'm quite sure I'm gonna continue this stuff for another year at least... ^^

Now I just wish that I've the wisdom and determination to get to my objectives and subsequently defuse a bomb I should have done so awhile ago...

Till next time,
-WKhai

More than a month since

Since the decision. Things have kinda died down more or less, but my resolve stands still, at least until my objectives are met.

This decision will just further strengthen my own determination and independence, which I guess will help me in the long run..

On a lighter note, I started volunteering at a dog shelter called "gentle paws and friends", ever since my exams ended. It's something I look forward to every week and keeps me moving forward. As I'm on vocal break(supposedly >.>), I'm exploring other non conventional options to spend time. Here i am, finally back to my roots, which is caring for dogs (something I've always wanted to do as a kiddo)

Friends have been busy with their own schedules in life and maybe I should too, but I guess I'm leaving it to fate :P

Anywayy, I've got almost 2 months more to my next semester in school so I really need to remind myself to stay grounded and disciplined to work for my goals.

#slightly-more-motivated!

Signing off,
-Wkhai

Feeling Blue~

Recently I've been feeling quite down... :(

What to do, I'm never the most important one anyway~

I've decided to stop this negative thinking, what's the point of lamenting and feeling like crap where nothing's gonna change anyway.

I'm gonna start doing things for myself and myself only. Not gonna care and bother putting in effort bout the rest.

And I'm apologetic to my bros who fet the blunt of my short temper-ness recently... SORRY! >.<

Time to start living life the way I deserve for myself.
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#frustration-vented

-Khai

Mind over body(almost...lol)

Today I was pangseh-ed by a friend of mine who wanted to meet up outside and study/work. I'm guessing he's either: too lazy to go out or he made another arrangement liao.

Anyhow, I was left to study alone last minute. I'm sure most people will just stay at home and try to study(won't work as one knows that studying at home doesn't work anyway, therefore making plans to go out to study). I did something even I didn't expect. I went ahead with the plan to go out to study alone anyway!

-moment of silence and then applause please- :D

Managed to cram about 30% of revision in 3hours or so, with the first hour being extremely slow. Not bad I'd say, considering the relatively noisy mac environment. Quite proud of myself too, for staying focused and decently productive despite the many whatsapp/SMS/phone call distractions that came. ^.^

Motivation is often under utilised. Some call it mind f-ing, some say brainwashing. I say, whatever works, works!

Hope I can maintain this attitude/willpower/perseverance through my semester and get really good grades. I know my folks will be über proud(even though they won't say/admit it)

暗爽就好了啦~ =P

Going to the mac near my house to continue part 2 of studies. Wish me luck! =D

-fighting on,
-Khai =]

ORD LO!

2 years came and gone by. Now I'm finally a free man again! =D

Felt really surreal when I woke up the next day after ORD-ing...but I guess one has to move on with life.

Reminiscing on the past, this peekture reminds me of the good ol' days in poly when I was pretty carefree!

(sidenote: the day I screwed up singing LOL)

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Anywayy, time to move on! Gotta few objectives for myself these few months before school starts:

1. Get my bloody license (like finally HAHA)

2. Bbball! Time to get back in shape :P

3. Work 3months or so? Get some extra cash to splurge on stuff like holidays and such...

4. Catch-up on all the animes/mangas I've missed out these 2 years...

Time to start moving! =D

5...4...3...2...1..ORD LO!

In another 5 working days i'll be ORD-ING!
Feels so surreal hahaha...no more sai kang, no more politics, no more lousy management. (I hope!)

I realised person A is as good as undermining (or even better) than person B. Its so interestingly subtle to the point that almost nobody realises. HAHA you can enjoy your undermining while i ORD LO! =]

Have fun being the boss, because u can't be free of your bonds (not yet anyway) :D

Sidetracking a little, but I've always wondered about the days if the management didn't have the people to rely on. Tried it, but too bad i never gotten myself into that kinda position.

Too bad Person C didn't want to do it as well, I guess I thought wrongly =/

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Anywayy, I've been thinking about FT studies VS PT studies...my mind and heart is telling me to go for PT studies cause I'll probably be able to cope regardless. But some unknown feeling inside (tsk, devil's advocate) is telling me not to do it. Sigh, I need to decide in 2 week's time... =(

Meanwhile, im just gonna chillax and enjoy ORD-ING wahaha~

Negativity

Had a colleague who blogged about negativity recently, and he mentioned that it became widespread (like a plague).

If you ask me, there isn't fire without smoke.

To have gossip-mongers/pessimistic people around, there must have been problems that surfaced and were not tackled properly.

He shouldn't be complaining about the consequences. Instead, he should be solving them(some at least)(like he should have, as appointed).

Ridiculous point of view, but entertaining nevertheless  ;)

Anywayyy, I dont care. I have 84 days to go. HOHO ^^

PS: Happy new year to all the peeps out there!

Signing Off,
-Soon-to-ORD Khai

To trust my brain or my heart.

Have been contemplating this particular picky issue for awhile now.

Some stuff had happened over the past few months and it led to much unpleasant-ness.

Have been asking myself the same question every night when I go to sleep....

Should I continue to try to value-add to the cause?

or should I not try and be an ass?

My brain is telling me to prove a point by being an ass, and its logically correct.
My heart is telling me otherwise, telling me that being an ass is not being true to myself and not sticking to my principles...

ARGH. BRAIN/HEART CAN YOU GUYS STOP FIGHTING?!

I've yet to decide. but i think my heart's gonna win =/

and somehow i'm not happy about that (note the irony: brain controls happiness)

Regardless, i need to sleep now so...

will come back in afew weeks time to "update results", so as to speak(type). lol.


Signing Off,
-Contemplative Khai

Dearest JK who ORD-ed day.

Today was a day of super mixed feelings. a day of significance, a day of turnover.

Today was JK's ORD.

Hard to describe my feelings in mere words, overwhelming would be an understatement.

Anyhow, have to thank JK for his guidance in CBT section all these while, from the 1st day I came in, acting as my upper for half a month while CPT WJP decided my future appointment.

Following which he had been guiding me both in E-HR and moral(e) issues at work!

Many a time when i was feeling angsty at work he would listen to my ramblings and throw in his 2cents, hich often make me feel alot better~

Nearing his disruption I was so sad he was leaving as he was the last of the NSF batches that I was really really close with.

Now he ORDs and I'm feeling it again. SIGH~


And as if work wasn't hard enough nowadays.

Shall not elaborate, im sure most close friends who read this blog(if any still do) knows about it roughly anyway.


Was only disappointed about 1 thing, why you no tell us?! Pink IC = no influence already what!

Of course, I'd understand if you made a promise and you wouldn't want to break it.

Thank you for trying anyway (somewhat), its much appreciated :')

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Looking back at year 10/11, I've realised I've wasted my time in trying so hard at something and neglecting everything else that really mattered. I neglected myself!

And now when that thing is falling apart, it truly made me feel like an idiot for trying. Should have focused on personal development in those 2 years instead.

No matter,  I shall utilise my next 95 days for myself. Only for myself.
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I had a sudden thought that my understudy won't be coming on 17 Jan 12 just because he's not happy with me(us?).

If its true I swear I'll play c*****n and **. Pride will get us nowhere, but it will be you that suffers in the long run, as I have none.

Hoho, and I'm still deciding whether to shift delete project or not.

Time will tell, especially in the next 2 weeks at work..

95 days left, FIGHT ON!  >=O

Signing Off,
-Soon-to-ORD-Khai

Interesting insights

Recently I've noticed some of my acquaintance have been quite sneaky.

Person A is trying very hard all these while to undermine and overthrow and people have been deceived by the apparent facade.

Person B has been leeching on my negativity yet wayang-ing so that only I take the hit.

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Nevertheless im not much affected, I'm gonna go soon anyway xD

Also have realised that in recent turns I finally understand what it means to provide "customer service".

Mentioned that in my FB but thought i should elaborate it here to remind myself.

The passion that fuels my job interest should lie in the satisfaction that I get from being able to make a change in the customers' lives, not being praised/commended by supreriors/colleagues. The latter should only be a form of encouragement and not THE source of my passion.

lol im writing in riddles. oh well, till next time =]

Signing Off,
-Khai

Horrified and disappointed

Just found out that there's a possibility of me swapping out with another guy from other branch in my unit. Nothing is confirmed yet, but the possibility alone reminds me of the hard truth:

"Once product life cycle is ending and it's starting to give problems, start to think of how to throw it away."
- point of view from "ikada auntie"

Sad. Yet true.

Why did I even give my all in the first place? I wonder...


Signing Off,
-wk

4 months and counting down!

Good news! Soon I will end my stint in NS!

Can't wait to work for afew months before schooling again.... =]

Need to decide on which course I'll study. This time round must put in more effort into going to school LOL~

April 12 faster come, I really cannot tahan already~ T_T
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Work has been stagnant for months, need a change of environment soon~ X_X

Few regrets but I trust my heart to make the right decisions. What's done (or not done) will be so and I just want to ORD peacefully =]

Training vision here I come! =D

Miss the bunch of co-workers there >.<
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Resolutions for 2012

1. ORD.
2. ORD. Ok I guess everyone gets the point. lol.
3. Work hard in TV and study hard in SIM~
4. Upgrade comp/get Iphone?
5. Lvl 50 cap released for dragon nest! muahaha~
6. Find time to always be there for my family and friends<--- so difficult T_T
7. Get a driving license
8. Be happy! Most important of all =]

How bout you guys? =D

PS: realised all my previous posts all so emo. No longer bothered by work issues, already 看开了! =D  

Signing Off,
-wk